No matter how many years you meditate…

"As long as you conceive of yourself as being somebody who has to do something in order to become something else, you still get caught in a trap, a condition of mind as being a self, and you never quite understand anything properly. No matter how many years you meditate, you never really understand the teaching; it will always be just off the mark." – Ajahn Sumedho, 'Everything That Arises Passes Away' (from the book, 'The Way it is')